Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Terrible thoughts

Until I had my halfway through ultrasound I was constantly worrying that my baby was gonna have Down Syndrome or some other problem. I wasn't letting myself enjoy my pregnancy because I really thought something was going to be wrong. It was like I was preparing myself for the worst. After having that ultrasound at around 18 weeks & finding out that everything looked good I was able to clam down a bit & just worry like a normal person instead of a total freak. I've actually started enjoying my pregnancy, looking at baby stuff, thinking of names and all that good stuff....
Last night I woke up at about 3 am freaking out! I kept thinking about my baby having Autism or something. I couldn't get this out of my mind & I couldn't fall back asleep. This went on for about a 45 minutes. I kept picturing an out of control baby like you see on TV when they talk about it. It was such a terrible feeling last night & I really hope it doesn't happen again.
25w5d

4 comments:

Austen's Mama said...

I think every mom-to-be has fears like this... when I got my sons 3D sonogram pics done it looked like he had a cleft-palate upper lip... everyone else told me it was just shadows, that he was probably fine. It terrified me... I wanted my baby to be perfect - I think all moms do... he turned out just fine, but I sure did stress about it for a very long time!!!! Im sure your baby will turn out happy, healthy, perfect, beautiful... try not to stress about it.

Jamie said...

No good comes out of stress. Just try to keep your mind on happy things because you being happy and stress free is the best thing you can do for your baby! We all worry, it's our nature, but try not to focus on things that have a very rare chance of actually happening and that you can't control anyway. Your attention is better spent on preparing for the baby's arrival and buying lots of stuff :)

Stephanie uk said...

I'm almost 30 weeks pregnant and i have been like you all the way through my pregnancy. I was terrified something would be wrong with my baby but I've had 4 scans and everythings fine with my girl. However, I DO NOT enjoy being pregnant one bit ive had constant morning sickness all day every day and allthough everythings ok with the baby I have developed an ulcer and nothing can be done till the baby is born so I'm in constant pain.

SW said...

I can so relate to that! I definitely couldn't truly "relax" and enjoy the pregnancy until DS had been totally ruled out. That was a very scary time. But once I knew that the baby was fine, it was magical from there! Good luck!!! :-)

~SweetWifey